Disruptive Grace

This week I came face to face with “disruptive grace”. The kind of grace that knocks you flat, causes your head to spin and demands that you stop and think! Disruptive grace forces you to define what you currently want and the things you used to want. You realize the need to open new doors and close old doors. The things that are hidden at the bottom of shoebox end up on the kitchen floor and the truth appears. There is a natural human resistance to change, even small change. However, it is with small daily acts of change that eventually lead to a large scale difference in your life. Through mechanical weathering water will wear down stone. True change works this well as well. Not in one big grand act but in a series of small and repeated actions over time. 

I love the good days. Where the sunshines, the birds sing and everything is “peachy” but it is often on the days that it rains and things seem to crackle and pop around you that you find yourself learning the most. Grace isn’t easy to come by and disruptive grace isn’t easy to walk away from. You wish for joy, hope for love but the truth be told sometimes you just need grace. 

Like grace that changes you my favorite place in Kuwait seems to continue to change to meet my needs. I know it sounds so shallow to write that the Hilton Kuwait is a place that helps me to find peace but perhaps it isn’t as much about the Hilton as it is about reconnecting with little pieces of nature. The sand, the surf and lying next to the ocean as the waves roll in all helps me to be still so I can hear again. 

The images from the Middle East, that flash around the world and on CNN, are in sharp contrast to how I spent last Tuesday. No guns, no war, no violence. Just palm trees, a little moon light and perfection. Like grace that exsists even with disruption beauty flourishes all over the Middle East. You just have to remember to look for it and go after what you truly want. 

“We can do no great thing… only small things with great love.”
-Mother Teresa-